"We are too late for the gods and too early for Being."

I have a problem. I take my work too seriously. For whatever reason, what happens to me at work, those things that don’t really have anything to do with me as a person, I still take as if they do. Work sucks! I worked the weekend the last couple days, and it’s not the most fun in the world. Getting up at 2am and working until 10am is difficult. It completely throws off my sleeping cycle. Even if I am lucky enough to get a couple hours in before work and a normal 4-6 after work, I still feel tired. Most of the time I don’t have to worry about delivering papers on Sat and Sun, but this wknd I did. And to top it off we had some routes that went “down.” I’ve been back working for the OWH just over 2 months now, and I though things were finally clicking back into shape. I had filled my routes and my carriers were doing well. My first month back really kicked me in the rear. If I hadn’t done this job before I might have been looking for the exit after my first 3 days. But hey, gotta pay the bills somehow. Especially since I have this lovely laptop to pay off now! But I digress… when I left the office yesterday morning, things were looking good for my district. I had 3 complaints. That was what I had last wknd, and was about half of my goal per Sun. The general rule is that over the next 5 hrs the number of complaints will be half of what you had the first 3 hrs. Imagine my surprise when I came into the office and discovered I had 13 complaints for the day! And I can’t figure out what happened. One carrier alone gave me 4. Another gave me 3. Another 2. And another 3. The one who gave me 4 called me to talk and claimed she knew 3 of them she had delivered. She didn’t say so, but she suggested someone was stealing the papers. Not much I can do about that on a driveway delivery route. And then she went on to suggest – after she said she wasn’t pointing fingers – that maybe another carrier was stealing her papers. I just wanted to scream. I know it is only work. It is not even in a field I am interested in making a career but it matters to me. And people keep insisting not to make things personal. Other than the health reason, why not? Some people could stand to make things more personal!

So Saturday night I was waiting to go to that surprise party, so I ended up driving to a Hollywood Video near my cousin’s house. Never a good idea. I really do need to get some mtg or something. They were offering a deal – 3 PV DVDs for $30, so I searched and found 3 – Eternal Sunshine, Underworld, and Spartan. Don’t ask about the last one. I have an interest in Mamet movies and anything that is Greek. Turns out Buffy Season 7 and Smallville Season 3 come out on DVD tmw. I put them on my Christmas list – I have to put a freeze on all purchases from here on out. But talking to Mom today, she suggested I go buy the Smallville one and then she can give it to me for Christmas. Plus the amount could be deducted from what I owe them for my Norwegian sweater. The reason this is important is because they are giving out free posters of Tom Welling and Christopher Reeve. Which would be pretty cool, eh? After all, they say that Christopher Reeve made us all believe that a man could fly!

Back to the topic of all things Greek… I emailed some friend this wknd to let them know about my blog. My former roommate Cas replied. Cas has been living in Germany for several months now – lucky guy! Sorry to hear you’re not feeling well Cas! J In his email he called my blog musings and made reference to Kaz. I was thoroughly confused about what he meant, for the longest time. I thought he might be trying some new variation of his name. Some new nickname he picked up in Germany. But then I figured it out. He was referring to NK! KAZantzakis! So clever, my friend. It reminded me of something pretty important. I have a grad school essay to work on. I was thinking about sending them a part of my master thesis, but someone suggested a work that can stand on its own might be a good idea. So instead of sending my thesis or a part of the thesis, perhaps I should rework a part of it. Which means I will probably be locking myself up in a hole somewhere next wknd to work on that. Granted I have 2 months until the application deadline but I need to start now. I need to send out the references so they have time. And I need to decide if I’m applying to BU’s Masters/PhD track or just their Masters one. I gotta figure out which one might give me the better chance to get in. Maybe I can apply to both of them.

My sister had an interview today w/ another office of the OWH. Not sure it went well. She’s been calling a lot lately. I’ve been thinking about throwing away my cell phone. Instead, I changed the ringer I had assigned to her number. Since 9/11 she’s been on this big patriotic kick so I assigned the Star Spangle Banner as her personalize ringer. I had to change it. She was driving me nuts, so I changed it to the ER theme. Hopefully I won't go insane w/ her calling. Actually, I have high hopes these calls will tapper off now that Mom and Dad will return soon. Actually, they are in TX tonight and will likely return tmw - probably before and during my BS mtg. Which is a little annoying but also nice.

Cindy called. We re talking about my blog. Hi Cindy! Hope you finally got into this.

I ran across this book a few weeks ago by Martin Heidegger. I haven't gotten around to reading it but I opened it today and discovered this interesting poem at the begin about the thinker as a poet. I just get caught up whenever an author using "Being." Don't know why. Anyway... I think I need to call it quits for tonight. I was reading a blog the other day, and the author was talking about the many facets of "love." I thought she was going somewhere w/ that but she didn't. And it's made me think a little about that. But that'll be for another day.